It’s so easy to do. It really is…

I’m typing. I have 12 minutes left in the witness I am typing up and am having a hard time concentrating.

I sometimes do take things for granted. I get really angry and mad when things don’t go my way. But then stuff happens that makes you think. I could have lost someone I care about a lot this weekend and that thought terrifies me. And he could have lost someone he really loved this weekend. And that though terrifies me too. But everyone is okay. Physically if not in spirit anyways. Everything else will fall into place I guess. I’m sure it doesn’t make it any easier for him or his family though.

I find it hard sometimes because I feel I can’t express my feelings to him. He reacts so badly sometimes. I can’t show how much I care. It scares him so much. I don’t know why he is so scared. Well actually I do. I just can’t relate myself. Not completely. But I wish that I could take all the pain away. Both his and mine.

I wish I could forget all the things from my past. But they are there and are a part of me. Same with his. It’s time to just take it one day at a time. He’s to important to me not too.  And when I think about this past weekend I am so glad that he is still with me. And that they are all still with him. I don’t know what I would do without him.

It makes me think that things could always be worse. No matter what; I want to be grateful for what I do have. Lifes for living after all and sharing that makes it all that much better.

And if you are reading this and have no idea what the hell I am talking about then all I can say is it makes sense to me… and that’s all that matters at the moment…